|My winged scapulas....yes, I'm well aware they look like elbows on my back|
|Elongated transverse processes that |
are considered to be cervical ribs
|Clearly not me, but |
similar tape job!
So where does this leave me? Being a science project, an estimated one in a million case (depending on what site you look at)? Confused and unsure. I ran my first half marathon this summer and I'm sure people would love to say this act caused all my pain and I never complained before really running. I didn't complain because I didn't know it wasn't uncommon and I could manage it. The pain has gotten worse and it affects being active in a large way. I never used to enjoy running but now I do and TOS makes it harder than it's suppose to be. For example, during my half marathon training I taped down my shoulder blades with pretty strong tape; I'm told it's about 2-3 steps above or stronger than kineso tape with the hope to decrease the compression and keep my shoulder blades down. Strengthening my upper body is kind of out of the question. Don't get me wrong, I attempt it but it kills me, knocks me out for at least 2 days and I can tell when I need to lay off on the running and walk, switch activities but honestly it doesn't just affect exercising. More and more often I can't open jars, twist off beer bottles, or have my hands go numb/tingling while doing my hair or sleeping.
I'm not okay with the possibility of "altering" my lifestyle, stop being me, or as one doctor told me, "You may have to be okay with the fact you'll be inactive for the rest of your life." I have a degree in health and exercise science and you want me to be inactive for.the.rest.of.my.life. REALLY?!
I'm looking at 2 options; I can either have surgery or I can live with it and suffer the consequences of increased pain, decreased strength & threat of nerve and arterial damage. I'm 95% confident on what I want to do but still need to look at all the pros and cons. I'm very logistic and like to see things on paper, see what I'm dealing with. More than anything it helps me accept change if I can guesstimate how things will go. I don't want people feeling sorry for me; I just want people to accept my decision and help me through the process. This is me, one of a kind; owning my pain, my disorder, my life.
* Not my xray- picture taken from NYU School of Medicine-Dept. of Neurosurgery