Somewhere along my life I decided that perfection was the way to live. If you looked and acted perfect along with meeting every one's expectations nothing bad could happen to you and you would never disappoint anyone. Which leads me to- pleasing. I love to please people, make them happy, make them feel better while putting myself on the back burner; hardly ever giving myself enough credit for the things I do. This is a great trait in its own right but then again I think that's called humility?? Anyway, when you combine the two it is a recipe for tunnel vision to the point of self destruction. Always being stressed about not messing up, letting people down, and masking your true emotions and opinions is a full time job. Funny, if you really think about it.
Everyone knows nothing is perfect and you will never please every single person yet there I
Lets not get things twisted, I still like things perfect and will still put others before myself. So what's the difference? I've messed up BIG time, let people down in devastating ways and I'm still alive; my world didn't catastrophically combust. May not have been the easiest during those times but I got through it, became stronger, learned who I was and who I wanted to be.
It has taken a long time for me to realize perfection isn't worth the stress and to be okay with myself yet slowly but surely we all learn. Not sure why but I wish I would have rediscovered this song on my iTunes more frequently, I'm going to assume it might have helped me see the big picture instead of little details that no one cares about and don't matter!!! Just a thought. haha :)